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Um... Hey everybody! This is -- I wanna talk especially to all the new people here, the ones who came from that other ship. [This is a friendly smile, but a nervous one.] My name's Elle, Elle Days. I've been here for, uh, a while. Yeah. I'm not an Assistant right now, but I've been one before. Uh... More than once. So -- I know how hard can be, to find your path to... happiness. The kind of happiness the Nurse is trying to get everyone to.
But -- I want to try to help. I... haven't been through what you guys are going through right now, but I know what it's like to... lose people. [She has been fidgeting through the whole video, fingers tugging at themselves and dancing over her knuckles, but here, for a brief moment here, they stall out. When they start back up, that fidgeting is noticably faster.] Um. So. I thought -- It might help to... make a list. Of all the people you're looking for, the ones you want to know what happened to them, where they went. And I thought maybe I could be the one to put it together? And then we could ask the Nurse.
It... I dunno what kind of answers we'd get, but it's worth trying, right?
Um. So, yeah, this is like, a weird kind of roll call I guess? [Elle laughs a little.] And I know people have offered to answer questions and help with adjusting and stuff, but, uh, I'll toss my hat into that ring, too, while I'm at it.
[ooc: this is courier six from fallout: new vegas! brief info can be found here~]
But -- I want to try to help. I... haven't been through what you guys are going through right now, but I know what it's like to... lose people. [She has been fidgeting through the whole video, fingers tugging at themselves and dancing over her knuckles, but here, for a brief moment here, they stall out. When they start back up, that fidgeting is noticably faster.] Um. So. I thought -- It might help to... make a list. Of all the people you're looking for, the ones you want to know what happened to them, where they went. And I thought maybe I could be the one to put it together? And then we could ask the Nurse.
It... I dunno what kind of answers we'd get, but it's worth trying, right?
Um. So, yeah, this is like, a weird kind of roll call I guess? [Elle laughs a little.] And I know people have offered to answer questions and help with adjusting and stuff, but, uh, I'll toss my hat into that ring, too, while I'm at it.
[ooc: this is courier six from fallout: new vegas! brief info can be found here~]
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[A beat.] This place -- is about saying things you don't mean, no matter how you feel. But I do mean this. If I can help someone else... If I can actually do something for once -- I mean it. Everything I can.
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And who knows, maybe all that time pretending will help you save yourself, too. As Heraclitus said, ἦθος ἀνθρώπῳ δαίμων.
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Softly,] Pretending isn't enough. Not for me. Not for where I'm from. I -- Violence... isn't a choice back home. I never wanted to fight, to -- hurt anyone. But in order to protect myself, protect other people... I wasn't given a choice. I'll never have a choice.
And -- Graduating someone, taking a deal to go somewhere else, that isn't an option for me, either. There are people relying on me back home. Things... only I can do. Promises I made. And someone... Someone who -- was here, then disappeared, and I'm scared about what happened to him, and I can't leave until I know, in case -- he needs saving, too.
And I... I'm -- I don't think I'm capable... of being who the Nurse wants me to be. Permanently, forever. [There's a little sullenness now, a little bitterness, a contrast to the sad, muted desperation up until now.] I can pretend long enough to help you -- to help other people leave. But I'm never going to be free of this place.